i don't know

I want to write, why do words fail me now, 

the cell phone seemingly mocking me lying there, 

almost gauging my wait, an unease,

a restlessness within, the urge so intense, 

to turn towards the one person I look to in my time of need..

the missing becoming so impossible to handle at such moments

is it any wonder I question myself 

querying constantly this depth of feeling, 

taking us to extreme highs and lows. 

why do we berate ourselves for getting so upset with the missing, 

is then the acceptance so complete

I don't know, but one thing is so obvious to me. 

It really becomes impossible to handle or cope 

when I miss you this intensely.. 

what is it that I miss I still don't know 

just that hello over the phone makes me feel so good, 

alleviating almost that peculiar emptiness and void 

somewhat, are we so incomplete..

why has this togetherness become so essential.. 

have you entered my bloodstream, 

is that why I can feel you so intensely 

flowing all through me, inside me..

is it my heart you've captured 

making you so essential like the air I breathe, 

each beat calling out your name silently, 

Is it my mind you've taken over 

sending signals to every core of my being, 

so much so I feel enfolded, wrapped, 

surrounded and seeped in you. 

how can I feel you breathing in every part of me. 

A haven both painful and divine, 

uniting our souls for eternity