those eyes

just that one glimpse.. seeing myself through your eyes..
shocking numbing the soul.. that heart..
that could've felt nothing but sheer affection always
scarred.. defeated.. broke something within..

a protest dying unuttered.. intensely wishing
that blessing could always be felt

strange eyes - victorious derisive.. might look on scathingly
still unaffected i falter at just that one glimpse through your eyes

whom to blame-

...... a  strange heart that knew no better
floundering maybe in a  sea of inadequacies
desperately hurting clutching at straws
blind to their origin...... futility.....

.... or the soul that cared all along
who could help or know of their short-sightedness?
blindly accepting a strange glimpse
negating mistrusting everything
shattering precious moments
into a stardust of hurt vulnerability

..... or the naive believer.. in life.. in people..
who knew only to be a friend

..... or the futile relation.. that put it's trust in such weak hands
how fragile.. how skeptical.. judged.. sentenced..
mistrusting their own heart.. as eyes hopeful
floundering in that choked breath
still search .. unbelieving...