those empty spaces

an unnamed hurt
the tears pricking stinging my eyes
as they overflow
trying to soothe the pain
of an enforced aloofness
a stepping back
compulsive self-imposed
what do i rue
i love that pride
still my heart aches.. goes out
ineffectually trying to fill
those empty spaces you screen
sometimes coldly.. firmly
deriding.. mocking
yet what do i see so clearly
that makes me
cry out in pain......