wayward thoughts

unbidden they creep in playing tricks on my mind
a friend and a woman she is deep inside

for heaven's sake we are just friends
why this nagging ache why this helplessness

but what do i do i can't help myself
a new feeling grew the longing intense

this constant missing the need to be together
my mind says one thing.. my heart wants to differ

she drifts into my thoughts taking me unawares
consciously i haven't sought still she is there

it's hard to reconcile this drift has no base
i don't want to lose her there is so much at stake

she means two different things both feelings strong
i feel torn in two.. might put a foot wrong

still it's a lovely feeling i have.. don't want to let it go
both are precious to me.. i want to be true to both

she is just one person but filling different needs
i wish i could tell her all the things she means

wayward thoughts here and there
like wisps of cloud.. getting tougher to bear..