what is this feeling!

what has happened what do i feel
this feeling so deep creeping within
both pleasure and pain i feel at once
i don't know i can't say
never felt before in this way
this missing is so constant
your presence always there
each moment each thing
with you i need to share
am i blessed or condemned
i know not which
is this mutual need
a reaching out.. a blending of minds
of mutual thoughts
whatever it is.. it's too soon to tell
but it sure does feel like hell
something i've always yearned for
but never believed
what an irony of fate
it's come maybe when it's too late
whatever, i don't care
if this is what i think it is
then i won't despair
in one lifetime at least once i've been blessed
i can hug it to myself and revel
what a beautiful feeling
suffusing my whole being
i can't eat i can't sleep have severe mood swings
can one person mean so much i love him i think
if something happened to him.. life wont be worth living
there would be a terrible missing..
something would die deep within